do you remember?
rolling down the hill laughing with tears in our eyes?
do you remember rain hitting the window pane? do you remember the hours dragging slowly into the night? do you remember... did you feel?
i wonder why it is when i empty my heart of its contents, kneel and present it, why its so satisfying to deny it? or worse, sneer at it?
i wonder why its so easy to walk ahead...
its like my existence was a mirage
memories just as misty and unreal.
are these jewels of blood worth nothing but grains of sand?
all i can do is sit and question
all i can do is reassure and comfort my forsaken self.
or rather delude it. feed it various stories to keep my sanity in check.
everything has leeched my mind...and the last string of hope slipped away from my tight grip...
perhaps it was better.
i held real dark red gems in my fist... unnoticed.